It's still there

It's still there. Still on my mind. Still in my heart. Still affecting what I do. Still the first thing I think when I see it's 11:11. Still making my heart jump out of my chest when I hear her name. Still making me nervous when I'm out and I might run into her. Still making me think what if? I'm still in love. I'm still wishing and hoping that something might happen. Still wishing she'll talk to me. I haven't felt 100% in 5 months, there's been no magic in me for 5 months. Still making me smile when I see a picture of her. Still the reason I'm smiling at my computer screen as I type this. Still the reason for me randomly chuckling when I remember something she said, followed by me fishing my heart out of my stomach, where it managed to fall to. Still the source of all my sadness and tears. I need her.