People I can tell everything (no particular order I just wanted to write it down)
William
Briana
Tierney
Alexandra
And that's it, I'm luck to have that many yey

'Tis all over once and for all

I'm just going to write about not writing about a post bitching about the one and only girl I talk about on here because she isn't worth my time

I had the weirdest dream last night, in fact it was so weird I don't know if I dreamt it two nights ago, forgot about it and redreamt it last night and remembered it. Ok, so I was on a holiday somewhere, and there was this lake sort of, more like layers of waterfalls, with like 300 metres of flat water in between each one, and the waterfalls were only about 2 metres high, anyway, the water was deep at the top layer of the waterfall stream thingy, and there was a cliff overhanging it so you could jump into it, and then swim over and fall off the first water fall into the intermediate lake in between that and the next waterfall, and it had a beach you could swim to and get out and run back to the cliff to jump in again. The water was like bright bright dark blue, but if you opened your eyes underwater you could see perfectly, and the bottom of the lake thing was perfectly white sand which was shallow enough to stand up in when you were in the second layer. Ok, so in the dream I ran up to the cliff and jumped in, and I got sucked under and I couldn't get back to the surface of the deep part, and the pressure in my ears kept getting stronger and stronger until they popped, and that's when I woke up and I felt all this gunky goo flowing out of my ear into my pillow, along with an egg (like a chickens egg) of course this was still part of the dream, anyway I washed this gunk off (it was green) and then I took the egg to the kitchen and put it with the other eggs in the egg carton, and it got mixed up there but I found it again and took it back to my room and then that's when I REALLY woke up. And I'm awake now thinking wut. But most importantly I'm thinking what will the egg hatch into?

The only way a opposite gender best friend situation can work, is if both people don't know or aren't friends with any of the other peoples friends. Don't get me wrong you can be amazing, fantastic, indescribable friends if you're in a group with other people, but knowing that you can say that someone is your best friend and that they can say it too and no one will think twice or think to themselves, 'well I'm her/his best friend too' is when everything just falls into place. Being best friends is a possessive selfish thing, you want to feel like you own that person, and feel like they own you, and same goes for them, you want to own each other as much as you want to be owned by them. You want to know that if someone asks your best friend 'who's your best friend?' that they're going to say your name straight away, regardless if you're there with them or you're on the other side of the world. That knowledge is consolation enough to live life in a perpetually happy mood.

I'm in a pickle, not really, but sort of. I'm stuck on a girl who has no interest in me anymore and ignores me. Now I'm cool with this, I'm fine with living in constant pain for someone I love, but by golly it's tiring. Anywho, the thing is, I've since learnt that people can move on from people they love, not stop loving them, but just love somebody in a different way and perhaps a little more. So I know if she doesn't start to respond it's inevitable that I'll move on. However, it should have already happened. Now, with my dashing good looks and boyish charm I could put myself in the running for many other girls. But I don't want to, it's like betraying myself, and I don't want to do it, but I want to do it at the same time. Any time a girl seems attractive or possibly friend worthy (Unless they're in a relationship in which case they ironically become my closest friends) I shut out the thoughts, not because I'm scared of getting hurt like you hear so many other people say, but because I don't want to betray myself even though I have no loyalty to the girl. Lame I know. But still, I think I need to turn into the manwhore I became after the first girl I loved (this being the second) and go on a spree of make outs and such. But I've learn that Michael Jackson was right, and I shouldn't go around breaking young girls hearts (HEE hee) so I still don't know what I to do or how to do it. Advice pls.